Welp. I just wrote a “oh wow it’s been a while since I blogged last but hello second semester” and now it’s already time to say goodbye freshman year. It’s been nice knowing ya.
Well technically it’s not over yet because now Penn along with almost all other universities nationwide are transitioning into an online platform to complete the rest of the semester. But basically, my freshman spring second semester has come to an end.
I never would have imagined that just like that, just like a snap of my fingers, I can lose everything. The people I was looking forward to spending more time with, the first year of college experience, the Philly hahaha.
^^the last... supper??? I miss buffet styled friendsgiving @lch premium dinners, you will be truly missed
But even during this time of crisis, frenzy, and hardship, I am evermore thankful. I’m thankful to have a roof over my head and a loving family who supports me, provides for me, and takes care of me. I’m thankful for friends and relationships I’ve built to keep me in check and keep me sane haha. I’m thankful for how far our technology has come that we can still learn remotely away from campus. Just imagine if there was no such thing as Wifi big RIP. I’m thankful to be able to write and express how I’m really doing on a wonderful platform like this :))
I still have yet to really sit down and reflect because I’m honestly still super overwhelmed and just really want to not think about it, but I think I’ll have to soon. It’s really hard to imagine that this has turned into a pandemic stopping the NBA (what the heckkkkk I was looking forward to watching and keeping up with a few teams now that I’m basically home and on break but I guess not…), having the power to stop all travel to certain countries, shutting down universities, and even… ending lives sooner than expected. (Well, I’m not sure how to word this properly because God already knows when each of us will soon die but what we expect and when it happens not according to plan...I think you know what I mean I hope).
Maybe this is a good time of reflection and truly recharging where my comfort is at a max.
Maybe this is an opportunity to truly grow without having to worry about some of the difficulties and take care of myself.
Maybe this is a time of growth. A time to take it easy, take it patiently, and truly recharge my batteries.
Not maybe but haha this definitely was all planned out by God, who has everything under His control. And all we are left to do is to have trust and live with faith.
Every time I think about school, I tear up a little. This entire unexpected situation just makes me so emotional and so sad that in a snap of our fingers, we can easily lose everything if it is His accord to do so. Though this brings about a lot of fear personally, I think this is a sign that I really have to spend more time with Him, reading, worshipping, and praying.
And last but not least, this entire goodbye to college (so far) reminds me of how beautiful family and friends are. Just so supportive, willing to spare time to talk, share meals at the dining table all together like it was before I left <3 So glad to have people living and walking with me at all times regardless of whether I’m at school or back at home sweet home.
Here’s to being positive and being strong through it all! We can all do it. Together. In Christ <3
Goodbye freshman year. It's been real <3 You will be missed Hill, Commons (LOL), Writing Sem, friends, UPenn.
See you soonnnn :))
Hello Zoom. HAHA :P
For we live by FAITH, not by sight.
Signing off with Faith Hope Love & Joy, Grace
Psalm 46:10
Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!
“Your heart, O God, is ALL I want”
Just a really resonant line from Heart of God by Hillsong Young & Free that I was listening to today :))
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