Recently, I think I’ve definitely had more time to think and reflect about myself and who I am. I think I’m using the word recently to describe from the start of this school year (so back to the end of August all the way to now). Nothing like a lot of time to think about who I am and who I am supposed to be, right?? Funnnnn haha
I think I’ve learned something pretty interesting about myself. I like change. In some cases, pretty big ones. I think I like to be a little outside of my comfort zone and have to adjust accordingly.
So a little bit of a story time:
I moved to New Jersey from New York at the beginning of my freshman year in high school. (In fact, the day before the first day of school. Crazy, right??) So adjusting to a new house, adjusting to a new environment, adjusting to a new school, and adjusting to new people. A lotttaaaa changeeee, literally 180 degrees (haha I was about to say 360 just because it’s a larger number but then that would mean nothing LOL hehe feeling a lil goofy :P). But anyways, as I was saying, of course in the beginning it’s super awkward and really tough, but I honestly enjoyed the entire process. I can actually say I thoroughly cherished it and still remember that day like it’s on the back of my hand. It was just that memorable.
New room, new living environment, new city, new school. Sounds familiar right? It happened again just this past August! And it was even more so out of my comfort zone (having to live without my family, having to take care of myself, having to figure out myself and my preferences). But wow, I am so thankful and really do look fondly on this time period with dramatic change. Of course, no doubt it was hard and I went through what I’ve dubbed a sixth life crisis. I had just so many questions and confusing thoughts and was pretty stuck in a warp, but by God’s grace, I came to realize that it was of course necessary for me to think, but I have no need to worry. So in essence, a very much needed time to reflect so that I can become my best self.
It’s a new year, it’s a new decade.
^^just a pretty sunset picture that I took today!
My first college winter break was incredibly memorable and just a lot of time to relax, unwind, do my own thang (so far). I’m a little sad to leave home and the comfort and peace that I’ve had spending literally all of my time with church friends. But at the same time, super excited to go back to school, get back on the grind, spend time with amazing people, and have an enjoyable & unforgettable time.
So if I really do like change, can I change in 2020 to be the best that I can be for Him? I know it’s different from being forced to change, but I have this gut feeling that if I put in enough, I’ll be able to, even if it’s a little at a time.
Got exactly a week until going back. So let’s go make the most of it!!
For we live by faith, not by sight.
Signing off with Faith Hope Love & Joy, Grace
Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Ah, a classic verse but such a powerful one that speaks to me especially today as I am writing this post! Just super reassuring to know and remember always :))
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